I’m 31 years old, married to a 39 year old man for 4 years now. My husband’s previous relationship was with a woman 11 years older than him. She is a very nice lady, beautiful, funny and their relationship lasted for 4 years. He left her for me 6 years ago
I’m envious that I don’t have the same experiences and the same confidence she has and I think that this is important for my husband. He is very mature and very logical I’m very emotional and an artistic spirit.
They write to each other every 5-6 months but don’t ever speak on the phone.
A month ago my husband sent her an email that said, "I still think of you everyday".
She never ever writes back anything that seems erotic. I think she only wants his friendship.
Once when we had a fight he wrote to her, "My wife is so immature, she drives me crazy sometimes.” What does he mean? Do you think he wants to be with her again or that he is only friends?
I never feel "enough" for him. There is always something missing and I don’t know what it is. Sometimes I feel he is still in love with his ex. Other times I’m trying not to be so insecure. I cry everyday thinking about how to deal with that.
He doesn’t know any of this is happening, he thinks everything is ok. I can’t let my self be happy. My smile is fake; my heart is broken. Our relationship looks perfect, he seems very happy with me.
I m very confused. What can I do to win this competition? I know I may lose the game, but at least I can try, I really love him. I want his children. But I can’t live under these circumstances with him.
I know it’s crazy that I check his email, but it’s the only way to know what’s going on. I want to stop that - I hate it. It’s very hard for me because I can’t tell anyone how painful it is to spy in my husband’s email account and read things like that. Vicky
One of the cornerstones of any relationship, but especially marriage, is trust. Your husband has not given you any reason not to trust him. Writing to his ex twice a year is nothing. This is about you and your insecurities.
I would suggest you speak to a therapist about what is going on. You are threatened by his ex, and yet, he left her for you! If he wanted to be with her, he would be. If, however, you don’t seek help and get a grip on your issues, he may wish he was with her!